have to write it down...

Okay....kali ini sama seperti halnya kemarin sehabis nonton rocket science, so many words show on my mind. All of it flowing like a small river, and it flow a lil' fast. even now, while i'm typing this blog, those words, flowing faster than my finger movement.

okay, yesterday i was made a huge mistaken, because of i'm too worried about something that even i didn't knew what is it. And for sure i really piss-off with myself yesterday. So many mistaken i made. I even can't forgave myself yesterday. Maybe it all because i'm a perfectionist person. And i just realize it wasn't that cool to be perfectionist one. I really want to gave rid half of it, but i can't. because my mom was that kind of person, and i learned from her. i'm not blaming her, but i'm also not really happy with this kind of attitude. My mind and my action, was like water and oil in a glass. Different but it in one place. And still curious with the great solution that God will give it on my mind.

So many things i have to think of. My study, my family (my sisters and my parents), my small business. Everything. And seems to me that i've been overloaded yesterday... LOL

But there's always a consequence on any bad act that you do. And what i got, my mom, ignoring me, thank God we not under the same roof. I can be very rude, mean and insane, when i life under the same roof with her. because of her perfectionist thing. Maybe it all because both of us have the same attitude, character and don't know what else.

But now, i'm a lil' bit relax and realize that what i've done yesterday, really, really bad. And it's need time to be fix.

Just hoping, and still hoping, that one day, i can be a better mother and wife for my own family.