Life is short...

After hidding myself in bedroom for about two hours, I finally out from it. But what really shocking that I receive a bad news. The bad news was, my cousin, who got cancer, was past-away this dawn. Undescribed what I'm feel, what is playing on my mind. Everything made me realized that this life is so short.

I'm still confused with the feeling I playing now in me. I'm sad, I'm h, I'm blank, I'm scared...Made my sense not working accurately. Maybe...Maybe it better for me start to see everything clearly and lightly...Since smile and laugh is the best medicine ever (you can find it in the Bible).

I've been thinking-so many though-lately, that I need a lot of guts, to fulfill my dream and His will. I also need to press my *****lity... It's killing me down. I start to addicted to it. This is bad...Gosh...what should I do? Totaly confusing...

Huufffhhh...when this confuseness will fade away?

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't nowhere to go, can't do it alone.... (Taken from 'The Show' lyrics)

That's me right now...

I really need God, my God right now...
Cause my life is also short like everyone....